I have always had a very soft spot in my heart and soul for animals of every sort. That even includes reptiles, which I realize are not everyone’s favorite critters. Snakes, frogs, lizards, I love them all. I can even tolerate a few insects, although I have to admit I draw the line at a few of the native Arizona crawlies that choose to take up residence in my house. The tarantula I call Gomer that lives under my hay shed is fine, he keeps his distance and never jumps at me. He and the King Snake (Otis), who also inhabits the warm hay shed, seem to get along okay and pose no threat to my safety or sanity.
I have not always enjoyed the company of tarantulas, however. When my son, Kris, was about ten he had a pet tarantula he called Ziggy. Ziggy inhabited an aquarium in my son’s bedroom and feasted on the crickets and moths he was fed on a daily basis, which kept Kris busy for at least twenty or thirty minutes a day, all the less time for him to get into some sort of mischief.
Ziggy hated me. No, I mean he really, truly hated me. I got along just fine with Kris’s Guinea Pigs and the Ball Python named Monty. I even fared well with the mice Kris raised to feed Monty, although it only took less that three months for two mice to turn into a seething mass of about forty mice. Monty just could not eat them fast enough to keep the burgeoning population from taking over the cage so we donated quite a few to the local zoo. I wish I could have donated Ziggy!
There are people who will tell you that a tarantula doesn’t have the capacity to hate someone, but I would argue that point. I have since learned the wonders of the big, furry spiders and no longer loathe them as I did back then, but twenty-some years ago I had neither love nor affection for the monstrous Ziggy, and he knew it.
From the moment I would walk into my son’s room, (which in itself took a good deal of courage), Ziggy would begin to face off with me. He would turn directly towards me and begin to exhibit his offensive push-ups, his front legs waving in the air like two claws piercing at the weak, human form that was cowering outside his glass cage. I tried to reason with him, explaining that I was only in the room because if I didn’t clean it once in a while it would have been condemned, but Ziggy never accepted that excuse. His beady, extended eyes would drill into me like hot pokers, his tiny tarantula muscles would tense for the attack; I’m pretty sure he even hissed at me a few times and gnashed his razor sharp teeth. Well, okay - maybe the teeth-thing was in my imagination, but you get the picture.
I believe the Ziggy pot came to a boil the day I crept into my son’s room to wade through his sea of dirty clothes, food wrappers and assorted boy’s paraphernalia, and found not just Ziggy in the aquarium but also an identical twin. Two tarantulas now inhabited my world! Somehow, overnight, Ziggy had cloned a brother; just as big, just as furry, just as fierce as the original. The only difference was, while Ziggy postured himself at me, waving his claws, gnashing his teeth and hissing in defiant fury, his revolting twin just sat there, staring.
I did take notice of this phenomena but I was too appalled at finding the twin to really care. I think I started bellowing in midair as I made the leap to Kris’s bed,
“KRISTOPHER!”
“Huh?” As it turned out, Kris was in the closet fastening little plastic skulls to his shoelaces, but I could not see him for the mounds of clutter that surrounded him.
I was doing my panic-dance on his bed, sending pieces of food and dirty socks bouncing up and down with me on the mattress, “Where did you get that!?” I demanded. It was pretty amazing I could speak at all as I was seriously hyperventilating.
Kris’s blue eyes peeked out from his cave of clutter, “Get what?”
“THAT!” I screeched, pointing to the aquarium. “The other spider!”
Now my brave, foolish son crawled out of his closet and meandered over to Ziggy’s home where he grinned and reached in (arrrggh!) and picked up the Twin Tarantula by a fuzzy leg, “This?” he asked innocently, waving it in front of me like a prize.
My eyes, which happen to be the same, innocent shade of blue as my son’s, were rolling like pinwheels, “Yes! That! Who told you that you could get another…”
“Mom!” Kris interrupted me, still smirking, “Calm down! It’s just his exoskeleton.”
“His what?”
“His exoskeleton. His skin. He shedded his skin…see? It’s not a real spider…it’s Ziggy’s skin.”
It took a few moments for the words to sink in but as my heart rate went from three hundred beats a minute to two-twenty, I realized the Thing Kris was holding in front of me was, in truth, inanimate. Exoskeleton? Who had heard of such a thing? Since when do spiders shed whole copies of themselves? And why did my ten-year-old son know this when I did not? Well, that part was unimportant, “Okay, okay…exoskeleton…but that’s it for Ziggy! My heart can’t take this anymore. I want that beast out of here by tomorrow, before he escapes that cage and comes searching for me in the night!”
Kris looked amused, but managed to whine anyway, “You mean get rid of him? Ahhhh, Mom….”
“I don’t care what you do with him! Feed him to Monty if you want, but I want him out of this house! Him and his exoskeleton buddy!”
“Mom, snakes don’t eat tarantulas…”
“OUT, Kristopher! Out! Out! Out!”
I should have known these words, spoken in motherly haste, would lead to yet another problem, but at the time I wasn’t thinking of anything but my own survival. So when Kris packed up Ziggy and his Twin the following morning and told me he was taking him to school for the Science Lab, I felt truly liberated. My nemesis was gone. Long live Ziggy, as long as he lived somewhere else.
It was about a week later that I received the phone call from Mr. Owens, the Principal at my son’s school. We were actually on a first-name basis, as I was with every teacher and principal who ever had the distinct pleasure of dealing with my Kris. This is not bragging on my part, this is a rather sad fact.
“Hello, this is Paul Owens,” began the conversation.
My blood ran cold, “Yeeessss…?”
“Were you aware that Kris brought a pet tarantula to school?”
My stomach dropped to my knees, “Yeeessss…?”
Principal Owens cleared his throat, “Yes, well…we’ve had a small incident involving the spider. I thought you should know.”
Oh, no.
“It seems one of the children didn’t fasten the lid to the aquarium and Ziggy escaped.”
“Oh…?” I’m sure my voice was cracking.
“Yes…uummm…he ended up in the light fixture above Mrs. Soames’ head and he sort of – dropped - down onto her hair. Well, she passed out, you see, and in the resulting melee, Ziggy was thrown across the room and landed in Lisa Carpenter’s lunchbox, which she proceeded to fling out the window and onto the windshield of Vice Principal Greene’s car.” Mr. Owens explained in a patient, but exasperated tone.
I could feel my heart dripping into my shoes, “It broke the windshield, right?”
“Well, yes…it did that.”
There wasn’t really much I could say or do. I believe to this day that I heard the beginning of a chuckle in Principal Owens’ voice but I can’t prove it. My mind was going over all possible aspects of the event, including whether or not my personal insurance would pay for Vice Principal Greene’s windshield or the psychological trauma caused to Mrs. Soames or poor Lisa Carpenter. And exactly how many Detention days for Kris would be involved, because his being kept after school meant me having to leave work to pick him up. Selfish, I admit, but these things worry a mother.
Still, even after my thoughts and concerns for the victims of the crime at hand, the words that came out of my mouth at that moment were aimed in a completely different direction, “What about Ziggy? Is he alright?”
Principal Owens just sighed, “The last we saw of him, he was crawling off towards the edge of the playground.”
I felt relief. Ziggy was free!
Friday, October 9, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
"Chappy"
As I mentioned earlier, God lives in the Yavapai County jail. It’s a very good possibility that He has a myriad of clones that live in jails and prisons all over the world, or perhaps He truly does have the ability to be everywhere at all times. I don’t know for sure, but I do know that no matter how evil and black a person’s deeds may have been to land him or her in jail, they all seem to find God and repent while they are incarcerated.
After working as a detention officer, I then spent five of my years in the jail as an inmate counselor, which gave me a lot of insight into inmate behavior and thought patterns, but I would venture to say it did not hold a candle to the stories and tales Chappy heard. Being a jail or prison Chaplain certainly takes a special kind of person. He or she must be not only kind and forgiving; they must also have the ability to know when they are being manipulated and flimflammed. In Chappy’s case, I would say he was the most streetwise Catholic I have ever known.
Chappy was a rather diminutive man; just slightly round, with a graying beard and merry hazel eyes. He might have resembled Santa Claus if his beard had been longer and he had worn a red flannel hat to cover his balding pate. You rarely saw him without a smile on his face and a good word on his lips.
I don’t know how long Chappy had been Chaplain there in the jail but it was a good while before I came to work there. He was a Deacon in the local Catholic Church and had retired from a secular life working in electronics. Chappy was a very bright guy. I don’t know if he learned his street knowledge from the jail surroundings or if he had had it before he started there. Maybe it was just natural to him.
His favorite activity was in the field of Religious Bullshit. If an inmate came into jail claiming he was a member of The Church Of The Divine Pomegranate and had to have pomegranate wine at every meal, Chappy would take it upon himself to investigate this claim and locate any and all information available regarding The Church Of The Divine Pomegranate. If the inmate’s claim was factual, Chappy would go out of his way to be sure the religious rules be followed, but if not, well, Chappy could be really amusing.
The most common religious claim was that of Judaism and the refusal of the inmate to eat pork. Chappy had very little trouble verifying these claims. He would ask for the inmate’s Rabbi’s name and the temple where he attended. If this information was unknown by the inmate, Chappy could be pretty sure the guy was not a practicing Jew.
If an inmate was a Seventh Day Adventist, and Chappy could verify this, he would see that the inmate got his pastoral visit on Saturday. A true Islamic would be allowed a copy of the Quaran; a Mormon would be allowed a copy of the Book of Mormon. Chappy looked at this as not only the inmate’s Rights, but also the humane thing to do. He was extremely fair and also very patient, but even Chappy had his point of no return.
It all came about when the local police booked a transient named Hobie into the jail for lewd conduct, public consumption and criminal trespassing. It is said that alcohol magnifies a person’s true personality, so if that person is a jerk to begin with, the use of alcohol will turn him into a Super Jerk. That’s pretty much what occurred in Hobie’s case. He came in spitting and cursing and threatening the world, which leads me to pause here and wonder why so many inmates spit? They use it as sort of a means of attack and communication. It’s very common. So common, in fact, that the jail has a supply of “spit masks”, which are mesh hoods that are placed over an inmate’s head so he or she cannot assault every passerby with a glob of spit. Hobie was fitted almost immediately with a spit mask, but not before he managed to get the booking Sergeant and an officer and a nurse.
Fortunately, I was out of range that day and, as I look back, I cannot recall ever being the recipient of a spit attack. I consider myself lucky, and also very agile, which is why I haven’t yet been hit. I suppose the spitting comes from frustration, being the only weapon a handcuffed person has at his or her disposal. Women spit as much as men do, in fact I might wager they are more apt to spit at an officer than their male counterparts. They are also much nastier drunks than men.
Hobie was just not a very nice guy to begin with. His public consumption of Ripple had accentuated his nasty demeanor to the level of Disgusting and he was sharing that with anyone and everyone in sight. He was too difficult when he came in to attempt to print and book him, so, as is protocol in the jail, Hobie was taken upstairs to a holding cell to wait until he sobered up or exhausted himself with his behavior. Once safely secured in the cell, he could yell and spit and carry on to his heart’s content and still not reach anyone physically. There was a small window in the door of the cell, with metal mesh and a hard plastic flap that could be lowered to keep fluids from being propelled across the room.
Chappy was on duty that day and had been observing Hobie’s behavior and the process at hand with his customary quiet interest. He did not generally get involved in such scenarios because he knew very well that there was no use counseling with a drunk. Chappy generally handled more of the social services end of things and offered religious counseling when it was requested. He didn’t enjoy inmates like Hobie any more than the rest of us did and he had a heart that did not ever bleed for them. But he had his clerical collar on that day and happened to have some work to do at the computer just across from the holding cell where Hobie was being housed. It took about ten seconds for Hobie to recognize him as a Chaplain, even in Hobie’s drunken haze, and that was when the tirade began.
“Gimme a Bible an’ I’ll show you all about how I’m being imprisoned for God!” Hobie proclaimed.
Chappy made the fatal error of glancing up.
“It says so! Right there in…in Revelations! It says the innocent are gonna be imprisoned for God!” Hobie continued, now pounding his fist against the metal mesh in the window. “Are you gonna let them imprison me? I got work to do for God!”
Religious ideations are extremely common among the mentally ill and drunks. Don’t ask me why, it’s just a fact. Chappy was used to it and there wasn’t much he had not already heard. Some of them knew their Bibles very well; most knew bits and pieces, like Hobie, and put them together into rambling accounts to suit the occasion. If Hobie had been sober, or even calm and courteous, Chappy might have taken the time to chat with him about his God’s Work, but Chappy knew it would have been a waste of time and he had other things he needed to accomplish that day. So he pretty much ignored Hobie.
This annoyed Hobie - a lot. He began to demand and pound on the door, “I said gimme a Bible! I got a right to have a Bible! Gimme a fuckin’ Bible!”
Hobie was right. He did have the right to have a Bible. All inmates had that right and Chappy was happy to provide Bibles to anyone who asked, even though he still believed his theory about God living in the jail. But in the state Hobie was in, a Bible would have served no useful purpose and would probably have ended up in shreds on the cell floor. Experience had taught Chappy that you don’t give ammunition to a whacko, because he or she will use it against you. He did try to reason with Hobie just a little, telling him that if he would calm down and stop his pounding and threats, he would see about getting him a Bible.
Hobie was not satisfied with that, nor was he willing to try and obey. His voice kept escalating, his pounding intensified, and his demands grew more and more belligerent. “I want a fuckin’ Bible! Gimme a fuckin’ Bible or I’m gonna sue! I have a right to have a fuckin’ Bible!”
This went on for over an hour, his cursing growing more intense by the minute until his demand for a Bible could be heard from one end of the jail to the next. It was only after Chappy had completed his work at the computer and taken his time to be sure he was in control of his own annoyance, that he walked casually over to the holding cell and looked Hobie right in the eye, with a peaceful, knowing smile on his face,
“I’m really very sorry, sir,” Chappy said, “I’ve checked everywhere and I’ve located a King James Bible, a New Testament Bible, a Holy Quaran, a Mormon Bible, a Christian Scientist Reader, a Spanish language Bible and a Jehovah’s Witness Bible and Watchtower…but we are completely out of Fucking Bibles.”
Hobie’s mouth closed with a klomp! And Chappy walked quietly away.
After working as a detention officer, I then spent five of my years in the jail as an inmate counselor, which gave me a lot of insight into inmate behavior and thought patterns, but I would venture to say it did not hold a candle to the stories and tales Chappy heard. Being a jail or prison Chaplain certainly takes a special kind of person. He or she must be not only kind and forgiving; they must also have the ability to know when they are being manipulated and flimflammed. In Chappy’s case, I would say he was the most streetwise Catholic I have ever known.
Chappy was a rather diminutive man; just slightly round, with a graying beard and merry hazel eyes. He might have resembled Santa Claus if his beard had been longer and he had worn a red flannel hat to cover his balding pate. You rarely saw him without a smile on his face and a good word on his lips.
I don’t know how long Chappy had been Chaplain there in the jail but it was a good while before I came to work there. He was a Deacon in the local Catholic Church and had retired from a secular life working in electronics. Chappy was a very bright guy. I don’t know if he learned his street knowledge from the jail surroundings or if he had had it before he started there. Maybe it was just natural to him.
His favorite activity was in the field of Religious Bullshit. If an inmate came into jail claiming he was a member of The Church Of The Divine Pomegranate and had to have pomegranate wine at every meal, Chappy would take it upon himself to investigate this claim and locate any and all information available regarding The Church Of The Divine Pomegranate. If the inmate’s claim was factual, Chappy would go out of his way to be sure the religious rules be followed, but if not, well, Chappy could be really amusing.
The most common religious claim was that of Judaism and the refusal of the inmate to eat pork. Chappy had very little trouble verifying these claims. He would ask for the inmate’s Rabbi’s name and the temple where he attended. If this information was unknown by the inmate, Chappy could be pretty sure the guy was not a practicing Jew.
If an inmate was a Seventh Day Adventist, and Chappy could verify this, he would see that the inmate got his pastoral visit on Saturday. A true Islamic would be allowed a copy of the Quaran; a Mormon would be allowed a copy of the Book of Mormon. Chappy looked at this as not only the inmate’s Rights, but also the humane thing to do. He was extremely fair and also very patient, but even Chappy had his point of no return.
It all came about when the local police booked a transient named Hobie into the jail for lewd conduct, public consumption and criminal trespassing. It is said that alcohol magnifies a person’s true personality, so if that person is a jerk to begin with, the use of alcohol will turn him into a Super Jerk. That’s pretty much what occurred in Hobie’s case. He came in spitting and cursing and threatening the world, which leads me to pause here and wonder why so many inmates spit? They use it as sort of a means of attack and communication. It’s very common. So common, in fact, that the jail has a supply of “spit masks”, which are mesh hoods that are placed over an inmate’s head so he or she cannot assault every passerby with a glob of spit. Hobie was fitted almost immediately with a spit mask, but not before he managed to get the booking Sergeant and an officer and a nurse.
Fortunately, I was out of range that day and, as I look back, I cannot recall ever being the recipient of a spit attack. I consider myself lucky, and also very agile, which is why I haven’t yet been hit. I suppose the spitting comes from frustration, being the only weapon a handcuffed person has at his or her disposal. Women spit as much as men do, in fact I might wager they are more apt to spit at an officer than their male counterparts. They are also much nastier drunks than men.
Hobie was just not a very nice guy to begin with. His public consumption of Ripple had accentuated his nasty demeanor to the level of Disgusting and he was sharing that with anyone and everyone in sight. He was too difficult when he came in to attempt to print and book him, so, as is protocol in the jail, Hobie was taken upstairs to a holding cell to wait until he sobered up or exhausted himself with his behavior. Once safely secured in the cell, he could yell and spit and carry on to his heart’s content and still not reach anyone physically. There was a small window in the door of the cell, with metal mesh and a hard plastic flap that could be lowered to keep fluids from being propelled across the room.
Chappy was on duty that day and had been observing Hobie’s behavior and the process at hand with his customary quiet interest. He did not generally get involved in such scenarios because he knew very well that there was no use counseling with a drunk. Chappy generally handled more of the social services end of things and offered religious counseling when it was requested. He didn’t enjoy inmates like Hobie any more than the rest of us did and he had a heart that did not ever bleed for them. But he had his clerical collar on that day and happened to have some work to do at the computer just across from the holding cell where Hobie was being housed. It took about ten seconds for Hobie to recognize him as a Chaplain, even in Hobie’s drunken haze, and that was when the tirade began.
“Gimme a Bible an’ I’ll show you all about how I’m being imprisoned for God!” Hobie proclaimed.
Chappy made the fatal error of glancing up.
“It says so! Right there in…in Revelations! It says the innocent are gonna be imprisoned for God!” Hobie continued, now pounding his fist against the metal mesh in the window. “Are you gonna let them imprison me? I got work to do for God!”
Religious ideations are extremely common among the mentally ill and drunks. Don’t ask me why, it’s just a fact. Chappy was used to it and there wasn’t much he had not already heard. Some of them knew their Bibles very well; most knew bits and pieces, like Hobie, and put them together into rambling accounts to suit the occasion. If Hobie had been sober, or even calm and courteous, Chappy might have taken the time to chat with him about his God’s Work, but Chappy knew it would have been a waste of time and he had other things he needed to accomplish that day. So he pretty much ignored Hobie.
This annoyed Hobie - a lot. He began to demand and pound on the door, “I said gimme a Bible! I got a right to have a Bible! Gimme a fuckin’ Bible!”
Hobie was right. He did have the right to have a Bible. All inmates had that right and Chappy was happy to provide Bibles to anyone who asked, even though he still believed his theory about God living in the jail. But in the state Hobie was in, a Bible would have served no useful purpose and would probably have ended up in shreds on the cell floor. Experience had taught Chappy that you don’t give ammunition to a whacko, because he or she will use it against you. He did try to reason with Hobie just a little, telling him that if he would calm down and stop his pounding and threats, he would see about getting him a Bible.
Hobie was not satisfied with that, nor was he willing to try and obey. His voice kept escalating, his pounding intensified, and his demands grew more and more belligerent. “I want a fuckin’ Bible! Gimme a fuckin’ Bible or I’m gonna sue! I have a right to have a fuckin’ Bible!”
This went on for over an hour, his cursing growing more intense by the minute until his demand for a Bible could be heard from one end of the jail to the next. It was only after Chappy had completed his work at the computer and taken his time to be sure he was in control of his own annoyance, that he walked casually over to the holding cell and looked Hobie right in the eye, with a peaceful, knowing smile on his face,
“I’m really very sorry, sir,” Chappy said, “I’ve checked everywhere and I’ve located a King James Bible, a New Testament Bible, a Holy Quaran, a Mormon Bible, a Christian Scientist Reader, a Spanish language Bible and a Jehovah’s Witness Bible and Watchtower…but we are completely out of Fucking Bibles.”
Hobie’s mouth closed with a klomp! And Chappy walked quietly away.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
The Saga of Nutri-Loaf (and other pointless Inmate behavior)
It has been a hotly debated topic in Arizona over the years as to who actually came up with the substance known as “Nutri-Loaf”. Our Sheriff, here in Yavapai County, claimed he was the inventor while the infamous Sheriff of Maricopa County insists the recipe was actually his. I do believe the truth is out there, but I doubt it will ever been known for sure. All we really know is that Nutri-Loaf was created as an answer for inmates who take delight in throwing their meal trays around.
One might wonder why this occurs; the throwing of meal trays, I mean. No matter what is contained on those trays, good or not so good, it is still edible food and in most cases it is all the inmates get to eat during the course of the day. Inmates have an odd “I’ll show you!” kind of attitude. It causes them to do things when they’re upset that don’t make a lot of sense. If an inmate is furious about something his lawyer has done, or the fact that his bedroll is itchy or maybe he didn’t get the medications he wanted the night before, he will often go on a hunger strike. He stops eating, shoves his trays back out the bean chute uneaten, and sits and sulks in fury on his bunk.
I wonder why they think this will accomplish anything? The officers and other employees really don’t care if someone eats or not. It doesn’t affect the officer’s stomachs and it certainly does not mean diddly-squat to their attorney or to the nurse who withheld the medication. It’s the same concept when they throw their trays and fling their food all over the walls and floors. The result is they have nothing to eat and then they have to either clean up their mess or live in squalor. Again, the officers just don’t care. The discomfort is all on the inmates, themselves, and seldom makes any significant change in whatever situation has them upset to begin with.
Actually, that’s not entirely true. What happens in the case of food fights and food riots is that those inmates no longer receive their food on trays. The relatively appetizing meals are replaced with Nutri-Loaf, served on brown paper towels, for as long as the punishment is deemed necessary. It could be a few days; it could be weeks. That’s up to whoever is dishing out the sanction.
Nutri-Loaf is made in the jail kitchen and can be almost any color and texture. It is concocted from all the ingredients for that particular meal, thrown into a giant mixer, blended with eggs to hold it all together, and baked into loaves, which are served to the inmates who are being punished. The Breakfast Loaf might be a mixture of pancakes, syrup, bacon, applesauce and cornflakes, all whizzed up with a few eggs to solidify it, then baked and sliced and served.
Lunch might be a mixture of fish sticks, beets, bread, tarter sauce, and chocolate cake, which turns a lovely shade of pink when mixed together and baked. Dinner could be chicken parts, green beans, potato wedges, lime gelatin with pears and banana pudding. That Loaf would probably have been on the greenish side.
The purpose of Nutri-Loaf was never intended to gross the inmates out, at least that’s my story and I’m stickin’ to it. The theory was the inmates could not make as much of a mess, or do as much damage, if they threw around a hunk of solidified food loaf and a paper towel as they could with a hard plastic try filled with assorted food items. They also could eat the slices of Nutri-Loaf with their fingers, eliminating the possible danger of hard plastic forks.
I, myself, have eaten Nutri-Loaf. We all did. Legally, we were told we had to at least taste it to prove it was not cruel or unusual. Cruel? No. Unusual? Yes, I think it was unusual, except, maybe, for the breakfast loaf. When the breakfast food items were blended and baked it almost always ended up tasting like quiche, which was not half bad as long as you didn’t take the time to inspect all the little bits of color and texture that were floating around in the slices. Whenever we had to prove to a bleeding heart lawyer or judge that the Nutri-Loaf was just fine to consume, we always made sure it was the Breakfast Edition we ate. Later in the day it might contain hot dogs and buns with mustard and ketchup, broccoli with cheese sauce, beans and pumpkin pie, which is a combined flavor that stays with you for much too long a period.
The lawyers, judges, and to my knowledge, even the Sheriff, never ate the Nutri-Loaf. They took our word for it. Thus, they could not form an arguable opinion on whether or not Nutri-Loaf was cruel or unusual. In point of fact, the jails in Yavapai County still use it today, but I do not know about Maricopa County.
The Nutri-Loaf incident occurred when someone in Dorm Three decided to insight a riot over the loss of television privileges. The inmates in the Yavapai County jail have cable TV and can watch pretty much what they want to between seven a.m. and ten at night, as long as they are on their best behavior. The television privilege is one thing that can be taken away from them in times of punishment and apparently that was what happened that night. What caused them to lose their TV privileges is a mystery to me after all these years and really isn’t pertinent anyway.
It was one of those wannabe riots, which are mainly noise and commotion and fortunately not a lot of injury, but during the commotion there was a lot of food trays thrown about and so one of the resulting punishments was two weeks of the dread Nutri-Loaf. That began at breakfast the following morning. There were complaints and threats, of course, but the jail is pretty steadfast on that subject. When a punishment is dealt, it is followed to the letter. The main thing is that if inmates throw Nutri-Loaf around it may create a mess, but no one gets hurt from flying globs of quiche-like material.
That day was relatively uneventful, as I recall. Nutri-Loaf was served and accepted by the inmates and aside from some cursing and grumbling they did not react too angrily. This, in itself, should have been a warning that something evil was a foot! Quiet inmates are suspicious inmates. It’s like when you have a couple of three and four-year-old children who disappear and grow very still and quiet. They’re up to no-good every time. Better go check on them and be prepared. But no one thought to check on the inmates in Dorn Three. It was busy that day and we were thankful for the quiet from at least one area of the jail.
The first call came at about eight o’clock that night, from the Dispatch area; water, or something liquid, was leaking from the ceiling into Dispatch, which happened to be directly beneath Dorn Three. This call was followed by a buzzing line from the Road Deputies area downstairs - more leakage. And this time the angry shout that came over the speaker system was, “There’s friggin’ turds floatin’ down here!!” This, of course, sent those of us in the jail scrambling back to the point of the leak.
By now it was more like a waterfall than just a leak downstairs, and the liquid that contained bits of “turds” was also pouring into the Sheriff’s Office and all over his saddles, his guns, and his expensive oak furniture. Fortunately it was not pouring on the Sheriff, himself. He customarily works in the evenings but on that particular night, Fate had taken him in a different direction.
In the jail, it was pandemonium. Every toilet and drain in Dorn Three was clogged and being repeatedly flushed. The result was a sewage backup that was filling each dormitory like dominoes, spreading into and through connecting pipes. It resembled a series of little, evil-smelling geysers, bubbling and spewing not only liquid and sewage, but also great globs of Nutri-Loaf which refused to disintegrate.
We shut the water off, of course. This stopped the immediate flow and spewing geysers but did nothing to squelch the ocean of sewage and non-biodegradable Nutri-Loaf. And this is where the Pointless Behavior comes in. The inmates in Dorm three, angry over having to eat Nutri-Loaf, had shoved towels and clothing into the drains and then flushed their Nutri-Loaf, along with a day’s worth of sewage, until they managed to plug every drain in the north side of the jail. This, in turn, caused problems for the innocent employees below in Dispatch and the Deputies task area, and also flooded all the other dorms where innocent inmates lived.
But the mess downstairs would be cleaned up by inmate workers or even by a private firm, not by any of the deputies and certainly not by the Sheriff. The flooded, sewage-strewn dorms upstairs, including Dorm Three where it all began, would be cleaned up by the inmates themselves, not by any of the deputies who had imposed the Nutri-Loaf on Dorm Three in the first place. County plumbers who are paid to do just that sort of thing unclogged the clogged plumbing. They didn’t suffer any for it. The only people who really suffered from the sewage extravaganza were the inmates in Dorm Three and their companions in the rest of the jail. Where is the sense in this?
Needless to say the Nutri-Loaf was extended for a period of thirty days and all other privileges, such as visitation and recreation, were also taken away from the inmates in Dorm three. They still had their Nutri-Loaf, their cells smelled like sewage for a month no matter how much scrubbing and disinfectant was used, and they were locked down with no entertainment at all. Pointless Behavior? Ridiculous Decisions? I would say so. But maybe that’s why they were in jail to begin with, do ya think?
One might wonder why this occurs; the throwing of meal trays, I mean. No matter what is contained on those trays, good or not so good, it is still edible food and in most cases it is all the inmates get to eat during the course of the day. Inmates have an odd “I’ll show you!” kind of attitude. It causes them to do things when they’re upset that don’t make a lot of sense. If an inmate is furious about something his lawyer has done, or the fact that his bedroll is itchy or maybe he didn’t get the medications he wanted the night before, he will often go on a hunger strike. He stops eating, shoves his trays back out the bean chute uneaten, and sits and sulks in fury on his bunk.
I wonder why they think this will accomplish anything? The officers and other employees really don’t care if someone eats or not. It doesn’t affect the officer’s stomachs and it certainly does not mean diddly-squat to their attorney or to the nurse who withheld the medication. It’s the same concept when they throw their trays and fling their food all over the walls and floors. The result is they have nothing to eat and then they have to either clean up their mess or live in squalor. Again, the officers just don’t care. The discomfort is all on the inmates, themselves, and seldom makes any significant change in whatever situation has them upset to begin with.
Actually, that’s not entirely true. What happens in the case of food fights and food riots is that those inmates no longer receive their food on trays. The relatively appetizing meals are replaced with Nutri-Loaf, served on brown paper towels, for as long as the punishment is deemed necessary. It could be a few days; it could be weeks. That’s up to whoever is dishing out the sanction.
Nutri-Loaf is made in the jail kitchen and can be almost any color and texture. It is concocted from all the ingredients for that particular meal, thrown into a giant mixer, blended with eggs to hold it all together, and baked into loaves, which are served to the inmates who are being punished. The Breakfast Loaf might be a mixture of pancakes, syrup, bacon, applesauce and cornflakes, all whizzed up with a few eggs to solidify it, then baked and sliced and served.
Lunch might be a mixture of fish sticks, beets, bread, tarter sauce, and chocolate cake, which turns a lovely shade of pink when mixed together and baked. Dinner could be chicken parts, green beans, potato wedges, lime gelatin with pears and banana pudding. That Loaf would probably have been on the greenish side.
The purpose of Nutri-Loaf was never intended to gross the inmates out, at least that’s my story and I’m stickin’ to it. The theory was the inmates could not make as much of a mess, or do as much damage, if they threw around a hunk of solidified food loaf and a paper towel as they could with a hard plastic try filled with assorted food items. They also could eat the slices of Nutri-Loaf with their fingers, eliminating the possible danger of hard plastic forks.
I, myself, have eaten Nutri-Loaf. We all did. Legally, we were told we had to at least taste it to prove it was not cruel or unusual. Cruel? No. Unusual? Yes, I think it was unusual, except, maybe, for the breakfast loaf. When the breakfast food items were blended and baked it almost always ended up tasting like quiche, which was not half bad as long as you didn’t take the time to inspect all the little bits of color and texture that were floating around in the slices. Whenever we had to prove to a bleeding heart lawyer or judge that the Nutri-Loaf was just fine to consume, we always made sure it was the Breakfast Edition we ate. Later in the day it might contain hot dogs and buns with mustard and ketchup, broccoli with cheese sauce, beans and pumpkin pie, which is a combined flavor that stays with you for much too long a period.
The lawyers, judges, and to my knowledge, even the Sheriff, never ate the Nutri-Loaf. They took our word for it. Thus, they could not form an arguable opinion on whether or not Nutri-Loaf was cruel or unusual. In point of fact, the jails in Yavapai County still use it today, but I do not know about Maricopa County.
The Nutri-Loaf incident occurred when someone in Dorm Three decided to insight a riot over the loss of television privileges. The inmates in the Yavapai County jail have cable TV and can watch pretty much what they want to between seven a.m. and ten at night, as long as they are on their best behavior. The television privilege is one thing that can be taken away from them in times of punishment and apparently that was what happened that night. What caused them to lose their TV privileges is a mystery to me after all these years and really isn’t pertinent anyway.
It was one of those wannabe riots, which are mainly noise and commotion and fortunately not a lot of injury, but during the commotion there was a lot of food trays thrown about and so one of the resulting punishments was two weeks of the dread Nutri-Loaf. That began at breakfast the following morning. There were complaints and threats, of course, but the jail is pretty steadfast on that subject. When a punishment is dealt, it is followed to the letter. The main thing is that if inmates throw Nutri-Loaf around it may create a mess, but no one gets hurt from flying globs of quiche-like material.
That day was relatively uneventful, as I recall. Nutri-Loaf was served and accepted by the inmates and aside from some cursing and grumbling they did not react too angrily. This, in itself, should have been a warning that something evil was a foot! Quiet inmates are suspicious inmates. It’s like when you have a couple of three and four-year-old children who disappear and grow very still and quiet. They’re up to no-good every time. Better go check on them and be prepared. But no one thought to check on the inmates in Dorn Three. It was busy that day and we were thankful for the quiet from at least one area of the jail.
The first call came at about eight o’clock that night, from the Dispatch area; water, or something liquid, was leaking from the ceiling into Dispatch, which happened to be directly beneath Dorn Three. This call was followed by a buzzing line from the Road Deputies area downstairs - more leakage. And this time the angry shout that came over the speaker system was, “There’s friggin’ turds floatin’ down here!!” This, of course, sent those of us in the jail scrambling back to the point of the leak.
By now it was more like a waterfall than just a leak downstairs, and the liquid that contained bits of “turds” was also pouring into the Sheriff’s Office and all over his saddles, his guns, and his expensive oak furniture. Fortunately it was not pouring on the Sheriff, himself. He customarily works in the evenings but on that particular night, Fate had taken him in a different direction.
In the jail, it was pandemonium. Every toilet and drain in Dorn Three was clogged and being repeatedly flushed. The result was a sewage backup that was filling each dormitory like dominoes, spreading into and through connecting pipes. It resembled a series of little, evil-smelling geysers, bubbling and spewing not only liquid and sewage, but also great globs of Nutri-Loaf which refused to disintegrate.
We shut the water off, of course. This stopped the immediate flow and spewing geysers but did nothing to squelch the ocean of sewage and non-biodegradable Nutri-Loaf. And this is where the Pointless Behavior comes in. The inmates in Dorm three, angry over having to eat Nutri-Loaf, had shoved towels and clothing into the drains and then flushed their Nutri-Loaf, along with a day’s worth of sewage, until they managed to plug every drain in the north side of the jail. This, in turn, caused problems for the innocent employees below in Dispatch and the Deputies task area, and also flooded all the other dorms where innocent inmates lived.
But the mess downstairs would be cleaned up by inmate workers or even by a private firm, not by any of the deputies and certainly not by the Sheriff. The flooded, sewage-strewn dorms upstairs, including Dorm Three where it all began, would be cleaned up by the inmates themselves, not by any of the deputies who had imposed the Nutri-Loaf on Dorm Three in the first place. County plumbers who are paid to do just that sort of thing unclogged the clogged plumbing. They didn’t suffer any for it. The only people who really suffered from the sewage extravaganza were the inmates in Dorm Three and their companions in the rest of the jail. Where is the sense in this?
Needless to say the Nutri-Loaf was extended for a period of thirty days and all other privileges, such as visitation and recreation, were also taken away from the inmates in Dorm three. They still had their Nutri-Loaf, their cells smelled like sewage for a month no matter how much scrubbing and disinfectant was used, and they were locked down with no entertainment at all. Pointless Behavior? Ridiculous Decisions? I would say so. But maybe that’s why they were in jail to begin with, do ya think?
"Mac"
Mac was a physically small guy: about five feet four inches and maybe 115 pounds soaking wet, after a full meal. He was also a kind of irritating guy; you know, sort of like that little cartoon dog that runs around Spike the Bulldog, panting and jumping and making every effort to kiss up. Mac would buzz around the Big Dogs like a mosquito, landing anywhere he could to get their attention and doing any and all favors to win their approval. As often as not, the attention Mac ended up with was a punch in the nose to shut him up, but that never seemed to faze him. The black eyes he constantly sported from his numerous “falls in the shower” were more like badges of courage to Mac’s way of thinking. He wore them with pride.
This desire Mac had for running with the Big Dogs and being part of whatever pack he could find was what ended him up in jail in the first place. Mac was the perfect foil, the fall guy, the quintessential sucker who was always the one left holding the smoking gun or the stolen wallet. He was in and out of jail on a regular basis for shoplifting or stealing gasoline or panhandling on the Courthouse Square. His charges were mainly annoyance crimes until the fateful day he fell in with the group of White Supremacists.
I doubt Mac even knew what a White Supremacists was. He certainly did not know what they stood for, or what it was all about. In our little corner of the world there are not a lot of people of color to begin with, and so most of the Skin Head faction has to content itself with talking the talk more than walking the walk. Mac could do that; talk. He could say anything he needed to say, promote any belief that was necessary to help him fit in with a crowd. Any crowd. Mac just wanted to belong somewhere.
As it turned out, he happened to join a group that was very happy to take him into their fold. They saw the benefits of having a little dog like Mac to run circles for them and they made immediate use of him. Their victim was a couple whom they perceived to be Jewish, although this was pure speculation on their part. Their plan involved arson. Their patsy was Mac.
Mac’s role in the event was to secure gasoline and then stand guard while the Big Dogs went about setting the house on fire, at least that’s what I gathered from conversations with Mac later on. He didn’t understand why his group of new friends wanted to burn someone’s house down and he had no earthly clue what a Jew was, but it all seemed pretty exciting at the time and Mac felt proud that his new pals were all so pleased with him.
Once in the jail, however, those terrific new pals no longer wanted anything to do with their little dog and the blame for the entire arson incident was placed directly on Mac’s narrow shoulders. Mac was not seasoned in big time crime and was certainly not worldly in the ways of defending himself. Yes, he bought the gasoline. Yes, he helped watch for intruders while the fire was set. Yes, he knew it was wrong to burn someone’s house down. But when he was asked why he helped with the deed, he just looked rather blank. In truth, Mac really had no idea why.
“Because they was Jews,” he told me when we talked one afternoon.
I probably frowned slightly, “What’s a Jew, Mac?”
Another blank, puzzled look. Mac shrugged, “I dunno.” He admitted. “Maybe they is bad people.”
“What did they do that was bad?”
Mac started squirming, reaching into his mind for a reply, “Maybe - maybe they did bad things.”
“Like what? What bad things did they do, Mac?”
It wasn’t my intention to make him uncomfortable; I simply wanted to understand what was going on in his brain. Unfortunately, I did make him very ill at ease and he began looking around everywhere except in my direction. I didn’t push him anymore but he kept thinking and twisting his fingers into the shirt of his uniform until the circulation was cut off. Finally he huffed a sigh and looked back at me with a glimmer of hope in his eyes, “I think they didn’t pay their phone bill!” he proclaimed.
So there you are. It obviously made perfect sense to Mac. People who did not pay their telephone bills were punished by having their houses burned down. An unpaid electric bill might warrant a public flogging. Failure to pay your taxes, well, probably a seat in Ol’ Sparky. Mac didn’t worry about those kinds of things, he let the rest of the world make such decisions and he just went along with the friendly flow.
I don’t think he even realized what was happening when his group of friends all testified it was Mac who lit the fires. He was too confused by the entire legal process to sort out who was saying what or how it affected him. He just knew he didn’t like jail very much and he could not understand why his friends did not want to be with him anymore. It’s hard to explain something like that to someone like Mac. As far as he knew, he had done what they asked him to do and he was not objecting to the consequences. It was puzzling to him that none of it seemed to matter now that they had all been caught.
Mac ended up facing his charges under the umbrella of mental instability. I never felt he was unstable; he was just extremely naïve and trusting and pretty darned innocent when it came right down to the brass tacks. People could easily disappoint him because he believed what was told to him. His disappointment and confusion over losing the “friends” who burned down the house was something he took pretty hard.
That disappointment and confusion didn’t last too long, though. It was only a matter of a few days before Mac found a new group of pals to hang with in the dorm. All he had to do to stay buddies with his new group was to steal a few candy bars from other inmates or take the heat when a rule was broken. He might suffer a few black eyes and a week or so in solitary for his acts of devotion, but it was worth it to Mac just to be a part of something. Just to belong.
This desire Mac had for running with the Big Dogs and being part of whatever pack he could find was what ended him up in jail in the first place. Mac was the perfect foil, the fall guy, the quintessential sucker who was always the one left holding the smoking gun or the stolen wallet. He was in and out of jail on a regular basis for shoplifting or stealing gasoline or panhandling on the Courthouse Square. His charges were mainly annoyance crimes until the fateful day he fell in with the group of White Supremacists.
I doubt Mac even knew what a White Supremacists was. He certainly did not know what they stood for, or what it was all about. In our little corner of the world there are not a lot of people of color to begin with, and so most of the Skin Head faction has to content itself with talking the talk more than walking the walk. Mac could do that; talk. He could say anything he needed to say, promote any belief that was necessary to help him fit in with a crowd. Any crowd. Mac just wanted to belong somewhere.
As it turned out, he happened to join a group that was very happy to take him into their fold. They saw the benefits of having a little dog like Mac to run circles for them and they made immediate use of him. Their victim was a couple whom they perceived to be Jewish, although this was pure speculation on their part. Their plan involved arson. Their patsy was Mac.
Mac’s role in the event was to secure gasoline and then stand guard while the Big Dogs went about setting the house on fire, at least that’s what I gathered from conversations with Mac later on. He didn’t understand why his group of new friends wanted to burn someone’s house down and he had no earthly clue what a Jew was, but it all seemed pretty exciting at the time and Mac felt proud that his new pals were all so pleased with him.
Once in the jail, however, those terrific new pals no longer wanted anything to do with their little dog and the blame for the entire arson incident was placed directly on Mac’s narrow shoulders. Mac was not seasoned in big time crime and was certainly not worldly in the ways of defending himself. Yes, he bought the gasoline. Yes, he helped watch for intruders while the fire was set. Yes, he knew it was wrong to burn someone’s house down. But when he was asked why he helped with the deed, he just looked rather blank. In truth, Mac really had no idea why.
“Because they was Jews,” he told me when we talked one afternoon.
I probably frowned slightly, “What’s a Jew, Mac?”
Another blank, puzzled look. Mac shrugged, “I dunno.” He admitted. “Maybe they is bad people.”
“What did they do that was bad?”
Mac started squirming, reaching into his mind for a reply, “Maybe - maybe they did bad things.”
“Like what? What bad things did they do, Mac?”
It wasn’t my intention to make him uncomfortable; I simply wanted to understand what was going on in his brain. Unfortunately, I did make him very ill at ease and he began looking around everywhere except in my direction. I didn’t push him anymore but he kept thinking and twisting his fingers into the shirt of his uniform until the circulation was cut off. Finally he huffed a sigh and looked back at me with a glimmer of hope in his eyes, “I think they didn’t pay their phone bill!” he proclaimed.
So there you are. It obviously made perfect sense to Mac. People who did not pay their telephone bills were punished by having their houses burned down. An unpaid electric bill might warrant a public flogging. Failure to pay your taxes, well, probably a seat in Ol’ Sparky. Mac didn’t worry about those kinds of things, he let the rest of the world make such decisions and he just went along with the friendly flow.
I don’t think he even realized what was happening when his group of friends all testified it was Mac who lit the fires. He was too confused by the entire legal process to sort out who was saying what or how it affected him. He just knew he didn’t like jail very much and he could not understand why his friends did not want to be with him anymore. It’s hard to explain something like that to someone like Mac. As far as he knew, he had done what they asked him to do and he was not objecting to the consequences. It was puzzling to him that none of it seemed to matter now that they had all been caught.
Mac ended up facing his charges under the umbrella of mental instability. I never felt he was unstable; he was just extremely naïve and trusting and pretty darned innocent when it came right down to the brass tacks. People could easily disappoint him because he believed what was told to him. His disappointment and confusion over losing the “friends” who burned down the house was something he took pretty hard.
That disappointment and confusion didn’t last too long, though. It was only a matter of a few days before Mac found a new group of pals to hang with in the dorm. All he had to do to stay buddies with his new group was to steal a few candy bars from other inmates or take the heat when a rule was broken. He might suffer a few black eyes and a week or so in solitary for his acts of devotion, but it was worth it to Mac just to be a part of something. Just to belong.
Friday, September 25, 2009
"Mac"
The shower stalls in the Yavapai County Jail are down right vicious! They don’t look exceptionally dangerous, they are your basic stainless steel boxes with three sides and a canvas shower curtain on the open, fourth side. They have a shower head which sprays lukewarm water when it’s not clogged up or dented, and a drain in the bottom, which works about 75 percent of the time. I have never noticed any shark-like teeth or raptors claws protruding from any of the corners or orifices and it is not likely the showers can sprout appendages with which to trip an inmate who is stepping in or out. So, this being the case, why is it that so many of our unwary inmates end up falling and getting hurt in those darned showers?
Must be the soap. It’s standard, jail-issue stuff that comes in small bars, similar to the soap you get at a Motel-6. There must be some property in those little bars of soap that spread evil and danger when taken into the shower stalls. I have no better explanation for all the numerous black eyes and split lips that emerge from those nemesis showers.
Maybe it’s not really the showers at all. Maybe something else is causing the injuries, such as fistfights, but that would mean the inmates are telling fibs and that is just so hard to believe. An inmate tell a lie? Nonsense! Whenever one of them appeared at roll call or meal count and was sporting a shiny new black eye or bloodied lip, I always asked them what on earth happened and it was always the same answer, “I fell in the shower.” Why would they lie about that? Why would they try to cover up something as basic and manly as a fight with some sorry excuse about falling in the shower?
After hearing this over and over for all those years I began to realize there must be something terribly wrong with the showers! I brought this up with my Sergeant and he agreed. We then compared notes with the officers on other shifts and they conferred: Inmates are being attacked on a daily basis by the showers.
So now that we had a pattern and a suspect in the injuries, it became necessary to find the third aspect: Motive. Why would a stainless steel shower stall want to render injury to the inmates who used it? Going back to the beginning of this epic, one might recall the comments made about the jail aromas. They can be fierce. Is it possible the showers are so repulsed by the smells they have to put up with each and every day that they revolt and lash out in disgust at what washes down their drains?
Makes sense, I suppose, except that those ripe aromas are rather collective and do not emanate from any one particular individual. On occasion there are inmates who do practice some form of hygiene and do not smell like moldy teeth and unwashed underwear. So then, why is it that even some of these relatively clean and sanitary men end up with black eyes and bruises from attacks by the showers?
Well, one can only assume the whole thing is a farce. These battered inmates are not falling or otherwise catapulting around in the showers at all! The showers are innocent! They have nothing to do with the injuries and are simply patsies for some other evil force of nature. My conclusion is that the other inmates are responsible. There are fistfights going on, or attacks of one kind or another, and the showers are being blamed to keep it all as secretive as possible. And did it really take me weeks or months of pondering to come to that conclusion? No, of course not, but proving otherwise was nearly impossible...
Must be the soap. It’s standard, jail-issue stuff that comes in small bars, similar to the soap you get at a Motel-6. There must be some property in those little bars of soap that spread evil and danger when taken into the shower stalls. I have no better explanation for all the numerous black eyes and split lips that emerge from those nemesis showers.
Maybe it’s not really the showers at all. Maybe something else is causing the injuries, such as fistfights, but that would mean the inmates are telling fibs and that is just so hard to believe. An inmate tell a lie? Nonsense! Whenever one of them appeared at roll call or meal count and was sporting a shiny new black eye or bloodied lip, I always asked them what on earth happened and it was always the same answer, “I fell in the shower.” Why would they lie about that? Why would they try to cover up something as basic and manly as a fight with some sorry excuse about falling in the shower?
After hearing this over and over for all those years I began to realize there must be something terribly wrong with the showers! I brought this up with my Sergeant and he agreed. We then compared notes with the officers on other shifts and they conferred: Inmates are being attacked on a daily basis by the showers.
So now that we had a pattern and a suspect in the injuries, it became necessary to find the third aspect: Motive. Why would a stainless steel shower stall want to render injury to the inmates who used it? Going back to the beginning of this epic, one might recall the comments made about the jail aromas. They can be fierce. Is it possible the showers are so repulsed by the smells they have to put up with each and every day that they revolt and lash out in disgust at what washes down their drains?
Makes sense, I suppose, except that those ripe aromas are rather collective and do not emanate from any one particular individual. On occasion there are inmates who do practice some form of hygiene and do not smell like moldy teeth and unwashed underwear. So then, why is it that even some of these relatively clean and sanitary men end up with black eyes and bruises from attacks by the showers?
Well, one can only assume the whole thing is a farce. These battered inmates are not falling or otherwise catapulting around in the showers at all! The showers are innocent! They have nothing to do with the injuries and are simply patsies for some other evil force of nature. My conclusion is that the other inmates are responsible. There are fistfights going on, or attacks of one kind or another, and the showers are being blamed to keep it all as secretive as possible. And did it really take me weeks or months of pondering to come to that conclusion? No, of course not, but proving otherwise was nearly impossible...
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
...more about Howard...
Not very long thereafter, a very attentive State Trooper somewhere in Tennessee or Alabama made a routine traffic stop and noticed the young man and the license plate on the car fit the description on a warrant out of Arizona he had read just that morning. Badda-bing, badda-boom, the arrest was made, the victim’s wallet and ID were found in the car and she was identified, and Howard Smith was on his way, via extradition, back to Prescott, Arizona, to face murder charges.
The first time I saw Howard I remember just looking up. Way up. He actually stood six foot seven inches tall, and although he was very slender, he had shoulders as wide as a crossbow. He was sitting on the wooden bench just outside the booking area, handcuffed to the wall. He had a handsome young face, curly brown hair, large blue eyes, and the most bewildered expression I had ever seen. His blue eyes were darting around the booking area with a deer-in-the-headlights kind of terror.
The officer who had brought Howard in was telling our booking officer that Howard refused to do any of the required paperwork and that he was being uncooperative. In the confines of the legal system, to be uncooperative is just about the worst thing a person can do. It breeds annoyance with the arresting officers, with the jail staff and ultimately with the judge who has to do the initial hearing on the arrestee. A jail, like most of modern society, runs on paperwork: a form for this, a screen for that. It’s how we keep everything moving along and orderly. When someone neglects or refuses to do his paperwork, well, it’s like having a tire iron thrown into your bicycle spokes while you’re peddling along at twenty miles an hour. The bike comes to a crashing halt and there are always injuries in the process. In this case they could not proceed with the booking without Howard’s cooperation and paperwork, and it was destined to make the judge very testy.
I should have been afraid of Howard, I suppose, considering his immense size and the fact that the last woman to get near him ended up in the morgue with a broken neck. Somehow, however, I wasn’t. I remember sitting down next to him on the bench and having him move slightly away from me, like a rabbit trying to figure out the best escape route.
“Hello, Howard.” I greeted, “My name is Susan.” We usually never gave our first names to inmates, although I wasn’t completely sure why. I suppose it was due to the nature of the job and the need to keep things on a non-personal level. In my case it was always Deputy Quayle. But with Howard I had the unexplainable urge to use my given name. It didn’t seem to me that being professional was the best move at that moment.
Howard’s smooth brow wrinkled in a perplexed frown and he spoke in a very soft, surprisingly high voice, “Like the flower?” he asked.
I was puzzled, “Flower?”
“Black-Eyed Susans. They grow by the roads. I pick’em for my sister. Her name is…” Howard paused as if catching himself in the act of committing some sin. Then he shrugged, “Her name is Elaine, but she’s dead.”
Dead? I briefly wondered if sister Elaine had been his motel victim and then I recalled her name had been Lucy. My next thought was to wonder if Lucy had been his only victim? Had sister Elaine also succumbed to Howard’s enormous hands?
“I’m sorry she’s dead, Howard. What happened to her?”
Howard just shrugged again. He could not, or would not, remember. He also seemed to drift back into that deer-in-the-headlights stare, which I gathered might be his way of saying he had spoken enough on that subject.
“Howard, we need to do the paperwork for the judge. He needs that so that he can decide what to do with you,” I urged.
Howard huffed softly and shrugged, “He’s gonna kill me.” He stated.
“Kill you?” I know I sounded surprised, “Why do you think the judge is going to kill you?”
Howard’s eyes now brimmed with tears and he began to wring his enormous hands, “’Cause I killed her, that girl. She laughed and I grabbed her and she got quiet. They said I killed her, so now he’s gonna kill me.”
It was at that point I knew I was not dealing with a twenty-three year old man. I was dealing with about an eight or ten year old boy in a six-foot-seven-inch man-suit. He had refused to do the paperwork because he was unable to do it, not because he was trying to be problematic. I wondered why none of the officers who had been dealing with Howard so far had noticed his disability. Were they really that unobservant? It was pretty hard to miss. It was sort of like a third eye staring out at you from the middle of his forehead.
There are times when law enforcement personnel get so completely swept up in their duties or cases that they seem to drift into an alternate plane. Everything is suddenly about the case, the victim, the criminal, and the rest of the world begins to get a little fuzzy. This is necessary in order to keep these exhausted officers going, channeled into what they are working on, energized. But in the process the people involved, the victims and the perpetrators sort of take on a wax museum quality. They become a face, a name, a criminal act, and it gets hard for the officers and detectives to see the person instead of simply the facts. In Howard’s case they saw a giant young man who had strangled a young woman to death in a motel room and who was now being uncooperative. They did not notice the fact that he was still a young boy inside, or if they did notice it didn’t alter their mission, which was to solve and terminate the case.
That day on the booking bench was the first of what proved to be many chats I had with Howard Smith, however most of the information I found out about him came from other sources, such as psychiatrists, social workers and lawyers.
Howard was one half of a pair of fraternal twins. He had had a sister named Elaine who had died some years earlier due to a drug overdose. They were both made wards of the court and put into foster care at the age of ten when their father decided to be rid of his retarded son by throwing him out of a car that was traveling at 50 miles per hour. It was unclear as to where the twins’ mother was, or even if she was a part of the scenario. I don’t suppose it mattered.
After Elaine’s death Howard ran away and was in and out of treatment and juvenile hall for the next few years until he reached eighteen. Then he disappeared for awhile and there was no record of him until the fateful day he was hitchhiking along Highway 17, north of Phoenix, and was offered a ride by a young woman named Lucy. Friends of Lucy’s would later testify she had been having a bad week and just wanted to get away, so she borrowed a car, packed an overnight bag and said she was going to Flagstaff for a day or so. Apparently her parents had never warned her about picking up hitchhikers as mine had done. She saw a tall, good looking young man on the road and offered him a ride. Her bad week was immediately going to get much worse.
How they ended up in the motel was never really clear. Howard Smith had signed the register and put down the license numbers of Lucy’s borrowed car quite legibly. The detectives finally surmised that Howard and Lucy had stopped for the same reason any couple stops at a motel in the middle of the day: some Afternoon Delight. Then, during the foreplay, Lucy must have realized she was not romancing a fully-grown mind, even though his body and emotions were very much those of a twenty-three year old man. She either laughed at him, or made fun of him, or both, and like any eight or ten-year-old, Howard got mad. When a ten year old throws a tantrum it’s a pretty violent thing. When a ten-year-old in a six-foot-seven-inch body throws a tantrum it can be lethal, and Lucy found that out in the most unfortunate of ways.
After strangling her, Howard panicked. He took her wallet and the borrowed car and started driving until he ended up in Tennessee or Alabama or wherever the astute trooper pulled him over for a traffic violation and recognized him as the wanted murder suspect. The misadventure was suddenly over.
In all the years I worked in the jail, and with all the killers I have known and spoken with, no matter if their homicides were premeditated or accidental, Howard was the only one I ever felt was truly and genuinely sorry for what he had done. The tears he shed were real, the words of sorrow and fear he spoke were from the heart. He had a conscience and he knew what he had done was terrible and he would never have done such a thing if he had been thinking in a rational mind. Everyone agreed on that fact, even the lawyers and the judge. The fact of the matter, however, was that Howard could be lethal given the right conditions, and this was something no one felt could be ignored.
He never gave me one moment of unease, though. During the almost eighteen months he was in the jail awaiting trial he was very much a gentleman. The other inmates learned to not tease or threaten him because Howard would react like a ten-year-old and no one wanted to trade fisticuffs with him. On the other hand, Howard’s main aim in life was to please people, so he seldom was demanding or threatening and he became somewhat of a pet in the men’s dorm. Typically, any inmate who has a developmental disability like Howard’s quickly becomes a target for other inmates. They can be victims of theft or abuse of all sorts. But Howard was very much capable of fending for himself, even without the mental prowess to give him any edge. He had the size and the strength needed for any situation and the other guys soon decided it would be better to have him in their corner than in the opposition’s.
I became a sort of surrogate mom to him, I guess. I worked graveyard shifts for a good part of his incarceration and I used to bring him out of the cell in the wee morning hours and let him sit and talk with us, or sometimes he would sweep floors or scrub walls just for something to do. He also learned to read. He would never finish a copy of War and Peace but he was finally able to complete a simple form and read comic books, which was one of his proudest accomplishments.
Howard was finally sentenced to a term of twenty-five years in prison but his ultimate destination was to be the mental health block. I don’t think he was really all that unhappy about it. He knew he would have a place to live and would not be in danger anymore. He also felt he needed to be there, where he could never hurt anyone again. Before he left he told me he would write to me and tell me how he was and he made me promise I would write back to him. I would have done that, very happily, but I never heard from Howard again.
He would be about thirty-six years old now. I truly hope he has managed all right in prison and has gotten over the terrible guilt and remorse he felt at taking Lucy’s life. I have heard other inmates since, telling me their tales of murderous woe and how bad they felt at the act they had committed but it never really meant much to me. There has only been one man I’ve known who ever suffered true anguish over taking another’s life, and he was, perhaps, not capable of realizing what he was doing at that fateful moment. But it is said that all things happen for a reason and maybe that reason was so that I could get to know Howard.
The first time I saw Howard I remember just looking up. Way up. He actually stood six foot seven inches tall, and although he was very slender, he had shoulders as wide as a crossbow. He was sitting on the wooden bench just outside the booking area, handcuffed to the wall. He had a handsome young face, curly brown hair, large blue eyes, and the most bewildered expression I had ever seen. His blue eyes were darting around the booking area with a deer-in-the-headlights kind of terror.
The officer who had brought Howard in was telling our booking officer that Howard refused to do any of the required paperwork and that he was being uncooperative. In the confines of the legal system, to be uncooperative is just about the worst thing a person can do. It breeds annoyance with the arresting officers, with the jail staff and ultimately with the judge who has to do the initial hearing on the arrestee. A jail, like most of modern society, runs on paperwork: a form for this, a screen for that. It’s how we keep everything moving along and orderly. When someone neglects or refuses to do his paperwork, well, it’s like having a tire iron thrown into your bicycle spokes while you’re peddling along at twenty miles an hour. The bike comes to a crashing halt and there are always injuries in the process. In this case they could not proceed with the booking without Howard’s cooperation and paperwork, and it was destined to make the judge very testy.
I should have been afraid of Howard, I suppose, considering his immense size and the fact that the last woman to get near him ended up in the morgue with a broken neck. Somehow, however, I wasn’t. I remember sitting down next to him on the bench and having him move slightly away from me, like a rabbit trying to figure out the best escape route.
“Hello, Howard.” I greeted, “My name is Susan.” We usually never gave our first names to inmates, although I wasn’t completely sure why. I suppose it was due to the nature of the job and the need to keep things on a non-personal level. In my case it was always Deputy Quayle. But with Howard I had the unexplainable urge to use my given name. It didn’t seem to me that being professional was the best move at that moment.
Howard’s smooth brow wrinkled in a perplexed frown and he spoke in a very soft, surprisingly high voice, “Like the flower?” he asked.
I was puzzled, “Flower?”
“Black-Eyed Susans. They grow by the roads. I pick’em for my sister. Her name is…” Howard paused as if catching himself in the act of committing some sin. Then he shrugged, “Her name is Elaine, but she’s dead.”
Dead? I briefly wondered if sister Elaine had been his motel victim and then I recalled her name had been Lucy. My next thought was to wonder if Lucy had been his only victim? Had sister Elaine also succumbed to Howard’s enormous hands?
“I’m sorry she’s dead, Howard. What happened to her?”
Howard just shrugged again. He could not, or would not, remember. He also seemed to drift back into that deer-in-the-headlights stare, which I gathered might be his way of saying he had spoken enough on that subject.
“Howard, we need to do the paperwork for the judge. He needs that so that he can decide what to do with you,” I urged.
Howard huffed softly and shrugged, “He’s gonna kill me.” He stated.
“Kill you?” I know I sounded surprised, “Why do you think the judge is going to kill you?”
Howard’s eyes now brimmed with tears and he began to wring his enormous hands, “’Cause I killed her, that girl. She laughed and I grabbed her and she got quiet. They said I killed her, so now he’s gonna kill me.”
It was at that point I knew I was not dealing with a twenty-three year old man. I was dealing with about an eight or ten year old boy in a six-foot-seven-inch man-suit. He had refused to do the paperwork because he was unable to do it, not because he was trying to be problematic. I wondered why none of the officers who had been dealing with Howard so far had noticed his disability. Were they really that unobservant? It was pretty hard to miss. It was sort of like a third eye staring out at you from the middle of his forehead.
There are times when law enforcement personnel get so completely swept up in their duties or cases that they seem to drift into an alternate plane. Everything is suddenly about the case, the victim, the criminal, and the rest of the world begins to get a little fuzzy. This is necessary in order to keep these exhausted officers going, channeled into what they are working on, energized. But in the process the people involved, the victims and the perpetrators sort of take on a wax museum quality. They become a face, a name, a criminal act, and it gets hard for the officers and detectives to see the person instead of simply the facts. In Howard’s case they saw a giant young man who had strangled a young woman to death in a motel room and who was now being uncooperative. They did not notice the fact that he was still a young boy inside, or if they did notice it didn’t alter their mission, which was to solve and terminate the case.
That day on the booking bench was the first of what proved to be many chats I had with Howard Smith, however most of the information I found out about him came from other sources, such as psychiatrists, social workers and lawyers.
Howard was one half of a pair of fraternal twins. He had had a sister named Elaine who had died some years earlier due to a drug overdose. They were both made wards of the court and put into foster care at the age of ten when their father decided to be rid of his retarded son by throwing him out of a car that was traveling at 50 miles per hour. It was unclear as to where the twins’ mother was, or even if she was a part of the scenario. I don’t suppose it mattered.
After Elaine’s death Howard ran away and was in and out of treatment and juvenile hall for the next few years until he reached eighteen. Then he disappeared for awhile and there was no record of him until the fateful day he was hitchhiking along Highway 17, north of Phoenix, and was offered a ride by a young woman named Lucy. Friends of Lucy’s would later testify she had been having a bad week and just wanted to get away, so she borrowed a car, packed an overnight bag and said she was going to Flagstaff for a day or so. Apparently her parents had never warned her about picking up hitchhikers as mine had done. She saw a tall, good looking young man on the road and offered him a ride. Her bad week was immediately going to get much worse.
How they ended up in the motel was never really clear. Howard Smith had signed the register and put down the license numbers of Lucy’s borrowed car quite legibly. The detectives finally surmised that Howard and Lucy had stopped for the same reason any couple stops at a motel in the middle of the day: some Afternoon Delight. Then, during the foreplay, Lucy must have realized she was not romancing a fully-grown mind, even though his body and emotions were very much those of a twenty-three year old man. She either laughed at him, or made fun of him, or both, and like any eight or ten-year-old, Howard got mad. When a ten year old throws a tantrum it’s a pretty violent thing. When a ten-year-old in a six-foot-seven-inch body throws a tantrum it can be lethal, and Lucy found that out in the most unfortunate of ways.
After strangling her, Howard panicked. He took her wallet and the borrowed car and started driving until he ended up in Tennessee or Alabama or wherever the astute trooper pulled him over for a traffic violation and recognized him as the wanted murder suspect. The misadventure was suddenly over.
In all the years I worked in the jail, and with all the killers I have known and spoken with, no matter if their homicides were premeditated or accidental, Howard was the only one I ever felt was truly and genuinely sorry for what he had done. The tears he shed were real, the words of sorrow and fear he spoke were from the heart. He had a conscience and he knew what he had done was terrible and he would never have done such a thing if he had been thinking in a rational mind. Everyone agreed on that fact, even the lawyers and the judge. The fact of the matter, however, was that Howard could be lethal given the right conditions, and this was something no one felt could be ignored.
He never gave me one moment of unease, though. During the almost eighteen months he was in the jail awaiting trial he was very much a gentleman. The other inmates learned to not tease or threaten him because Howard would react like a ten-year-old and no one wanted to trade fisticuffs with him. On the other hand, Howard’s main aim in life was to please people, so he seldom was demanding or threatening and he became somewhat of a pet in the men’s dorm. Typically, any inmate who has a developmental disability like Howard’s quickly becomes a target for other inmates. They can be victims of theft or abuse of all sorts. But Howard was very much capable of fending for himself, even without the mental prowess to give him any edge. He had the size and the strength needed for any situation and the other guys soon decided it would be better to have him in their corner than in the opposition’s.
I became a sort of surrogate mom to him, I guess. I worked graveyard shifts for a good part of his incarceration and I used to bring him out of the cell in the wee morning hours and let him sit and talk with us, or sometimes he would sweep floors or scrub walls just for something to do. He also learned to read. He would never finish a copy of War and Peace but he was finally able to complete a simple form and read comic books, which was one of his proudest accomplishments.
Howard was finally sentenced to a term of twenty-five years in prison but his ultimate destination was to be the mental health block. I don’t think he was really all that unhappy about it. He knew he would have a place to live and would not be in danger anymore. He also felt he needed to be there, where he could never hurt anyone again. Before he left he told me he would write to me and tell me how he was and he made me promise I would write back to him. I would have done that, very happily, but I never heard from Howard again.
He would be about thirty-six years old now. I truly hope he has managed all right in prison and has gotten over the terrible guilt and remorse he felt at taking Lucy’s life. I have heard other inmates since, telling me their tales of murderous woe and how bad they felt at the act they had committed but it never really meant much to me. There has only been one man I’ve known who ever suffered true anguish over taking another’s life, and he was, perhaps, not capable of realizing what he was doing at that fateful moment. But it is said that all things happen for a reason and maybe that reason was so that I could get to know Howard.
Friday, September 18, 2009
"Howard"
My parents told me many moons ago that I should never, ever pick up a hitchhiker. Hitchhikers were dangerous people who had only one reason for their lonely activity, and that was to find and attack young women drivers who were silly enough to stop and give them a ride. I never argued this point with my parents and unless I recognized the person by the side of the road that was thumbing for a ride, I never stopped to pick him up. Well, almost never. But I had my driver’s license the day I turned sixteen, and I had my own car before I ever turned sixteen, so the rule to never pick up a hitchhiker was broken on occasion in spite of my parental warnings.
I was given the keys to a 1962 bright red Corvair convertible. My Dad bought it for me when I was about fifteen and a half and the neighbor boy had to drive me to school in it until I turned old enough to drive it myself. Was I spoiled? Yup. But I also believe it was just one of my Dad’s fantasies; to have a red convertible. Being a family man and an executive it wasn’t likely he would have one for himself. Besides, my mother was never the red convertible type.
The red Corvair was the perfect vehicle for stuffing friends and surfboards in the back and heading to the coast. Gas was cheap back then; there were still Gas Wars and it could often be had for twenty cents a gallon and the roads were uncrowded. It was the perfect summertime escape and surfing was one of the best ways to spend a day. Sometimes, however, we left the surfboards at home and headed a bit further south than our usual haunts down to San Diego.
My parents never knew this. They would not have cared about my trekking to San Diego itself, they were pretty lenient with me in that aspect, but if they had known we drove to San Diego for the express purpose of meeting sailors or other male types– well - that might have been another story. It was not acceptable behavior for a sixteen-year-old girl to stop and pick up sailors or surfers along the highway, but we did it - my pals and I. If it was just myself and one other girl we would limit ourselves to two sailors or surfers in the car. If there were three of us it would be a trio of sailors or surfers, and so on, as many as would fit.
When I say, “pick up” I mean that in the most direct sense of the word. We picked them up and gave them rides to wherever they were headed. Typically that was either away from or back to their ships or up the coast to a better set of waves. It only amounted to flirting, conversation, and if we were lucky, lunch. Nothing awful ever happened. Then again it was 1963 and times were a lot different, but I suppose it was still not a terribly smart thing to do.
The dead girl lying on the morgue table had picked up a hitchhiker, although at that moment the detectives did not know what had really happened. She had been strangled and her body had been found in a small motel room along Highway 17 north of Phoenix and well inside the Yavapai County line.
She had no identification on her and in such cases it is common to run a photo of the victim in the local newspapers to try and locate next of kin. This is possible if the victim doesn’t appear dead, but in the case of this young woman it was very obvious she wasn’t living and it would have been a very shocking thing if her mother had picked up the Sunday paper and seen her daughter’s morgue photo on the front page with a caption that read: “Do you know this woman?”
So, Forensic Woman to the rescue.
The request of me was to make her “look alive”, just as they had instructed me to do with Baby Doe. It was much easier this time, however. The victims’ features were in tact, I could even tell her hazel eye color. The features were a bit distorted in her death rigor but my imagination had no trouble putting them back into their rightful proportions. The resulting sketch was of a rather attractive, blonde, twenty-something woman. I didn’t reproduce the severe bruising about her throat and face.
Meanwhile, detectives had done their own footwork and found a name in the motel register belonging to one Howard Smith. Neither Howard nor Smith were his real names but we’ll use them for the purpose of this story. The motel manager also remembered that Mr. Smith was a very young man and extremely tall. Six foot five at least. He had the license number of the car Mr. Smith had arrived in. With these clues, they put out a warrant for the arrest of Mr. Howard Smith; just about the time I was drawing a postmortem sketch of his victim for newspaper publication...
I was given the keys to a 1962 bright red Corvair convertible. My Dad bought it for me when I was about fifteen and a half and the neighbor boy had to drive me to school in it until I turned old enough to drive it myself. Was I spoiled? Yup. But I also believe it was just one of my Dad’s fantasies; to have a red convertible. Being a family man and an executive it wasn’t likely he would have one for himself. Besides, my mother was never the red convertible type.
The red Corvair was the perfect vehicle for stuffing friends and surfboards in the back and heading to the coast. Gas was cheap back then; there were still Gas Wars and it could often be had for twenty cents a gallon and the roads were uncrowded. It was the perfect summertime escape and surfing was one of the best ways to spend a day. Sometimes, however, we left the surfboards at home and headed a bit further south than our usual haunts down to San Diego.
My parents never knew this. They would not have cared about my trekking to San Diego itself, they were pretty lenient with me in that aspect, but if they had known we drove to San Diego for the express purpose of meeting sailors or other male types– well - that might have been another story. It was not acceptable behavior for a sixteen-year-old girl to stop and pick up sailors or surfers along the highway, but we did it - my pals and I. If it was just myself and one other girl we would limit ourselves to two sailors or surfers in the car. If there were three of us it would be a trio of sailors or surfers, and so on, as many as would fit.
When I say, “pick up” I mean that in the most direct sense of the word. We picked them up and gave them rides to wherever they were headed. Typically that was either away from or back to their ships or up the coast to a better set of waves. It only amounted to flirting, conversation, and if we were lucky, lunch. Nothing awful ever happened. Then again it was 1963 and times were a lot different, but I suppose it was still not a terribly smart thing to do.
The dead girl lying on the morgue table had picked up a hitchhiker, although at that moment the detectives did not know what had really happened. She had been strangled and her body had been found in a small motel room along Highway 17 north of Phoenix and well inside the Yavapai County line.
She had no identification on her and in such cases it is common to run a photo of the victim in the local newspapers to try and locate next of kin. This is possible if the victim doesn’t appear dead, but in the case of this young woman it was very obvious she wasn’t living and it would have been a very shocking thing if her mother had picked up the Sunday paper and seen her daughter’s morgue photo on the front page with a caption that read: “Do you know this woman?”
So, Forensic Woman to the rescue.
The request of me was to make her “look alive”, just as they had instructed me to do with Baby Doe. It was much easier this time, however. The victims’ features were in tact, I could even tell her hazel eye color. The features were a bit distorted in her death rigor but my imagination had no trouble putting them back into their rightful proportions. The resulting sketch was of a rather attractive, blonde, twenty-something woman. I didn’t reproduce the severe bruising about her throat and face.
Meanwhile, detectives had done their own footwork and found a name in the motel register belonging to one Howard Smith. Neither Howard nor Smith were his real names but we’ll use them for the purpose of this story. The motel manager also remembered that Mr. Smith was a very young man and extremely tall. Six foot five at least. He had the license number of the car Mr. Smith had arrived in. With these clues, they put out a warrant for the arrest of Mr. Howard Smith; just about the time I was drawing a postmortem sketch of his victim for newspaper publication...
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